The Road Less Travelled


Tall trees in bloom with several violet flowers, the flapping red flag high up on the tomb of a temple; I drive through the sharp turns, moving closer and further from the rocky walls. The chilly wind piercing through my skin, hair trying to veil my eyes, blocking the view of the endless mountain peaks that can only meet the sight.

Old, vacant dwellings, far from each other. Bridges connecting the roads that were never meant to be. I don’t like to see co-travellers during this journey.

The mountains are too big to ascend and their peaks too difficult to reach. When I turn and climb in an attempt to elevate, I want to be the only soul perceptible. Hills must be the place where the holy spirits dwell; human presence may kill their peace. I witness the birds flying in one direction, then resting and larking at a sight invisible to me.

I want to have a conversation with who they see, ask them if they are searching for something as well. Whether they have any companions, or if they too dream of a mysterious place similar to these hills.

I am still waiting for an answer, while the hues of vermilion turn into a silver sky without stars. The hissing wind sounds like the heavy breathing of someone tired of walking miles, with the satisfaction of having accomplished a purpose in its pause. I stare into the nothingness to see the motion of light, leaving the place tranquil with neighbouring darkness of the night. He left again, may be to seek another human like me, to convince them of a fulfilment just like they did to me.



Confessions of a Thoughtful Mind

In bed and not sleepy. Just thinking..about past, present and future. The important people that I have lost. The good and bad they did to me, the good and bad I did to them. Whether it was really how I think about it, or my judgments were wrong.

The good times that hurt now, because they happen no more. The bad times that you regret, yet they taught you a lesson in life. Your past makes you happy because it was good. Some losses are for the good, some for the bad. Some of them were too good to be lost, a losing them gives birth to self-doubt. Your inability to pursue it further in life. You start contemplating about the righteousness of the decisions you took then. ‘Things were good, could they have been better if continued or only worsened?’

Past and future occupy you so much that you spoil the present. You ask yourself questions for which you have no answers. Every day you take a pledge to not ponder over it again. But the mind does not function alone, heart accompanies it always.

You sit alone, and you like it. You look for solitude and alienate yourself from those around. At times it helps, at times it doesn’t. In my case, it usually does. That’s especially when people around don’t know about your problem. They judge you on the basis of your involvement in it instead of realizing the vulnerability of the time it occurred to you. As a result, a distance is created, but its temporary, considering you cannot be in the same mental frame for long. And should not be as well, unless it’s a happy state. 🙂 People who don’t judge you are the people you share it with, coz you know you can. Though not as intensely as you share it with yourself. They do guide you and correct you, yet understand you selflessly, they are friends! They usually suggest what is right, coz they have the privilege of looking at the issue practically and not only emotionally. You are convinced and you agree. You take a decision and feel better about it. But that’s temporary. As they say, when we sleep, the mind is relaxed, but the heart is not. When the mind is sleeping, heart alone does the thinking and loses rationality completely. You want space, not just from others, but also from your own thoughts, the hollowness. You try to fill the vacuum. People who create it are not available, but their memories are.

You compare the past with future. You hope that it shall be better yet doubt the same. You think that the decisions you take now could prove you wrong. Then to make yourself feel lighter, you try to convince yourself that it indeed shall be better, coz that’s what you deserve. But the truth is, you are stuck to the past until future happens..and present is lost in between. In the world of emotions, the present is more hypothetical than future. Future is achievable but we do not realize it, in this process, we forget to achieve the present.

In fact, the present is what is most important. It can redeem you of your past and help the future to be brighter and happier. I take a sigh, believe in the present, smile to myself and close my eyes!

Random Thoughts

Silence often helps in finding the right answers.

Love is like the air which can never cease. Some relationships are like the cool breeze which soothe your senses and some are like the dusty storms which pollute the very existence of air.

Winning and loosing lose their relevance when it comes to spreading smiles across the faces of those you love.

Religion not only teaches us how to worship our God but also gives us a reason to fight.

When two people suffer a loss of the same magnitutde, a silent touch consoles more than words.

If you smile when no one else is around, you really mean it.

Love has its own time, season and own reasons. You can’t ask it to stay, you can only embrace it as it comes and be glad that for a moment in your life, it was yours.

The truth you speak has no past and no future, it is, and that’s all it needs to be.

If words express, silence heals.

The beauty of emotions is that you can’t be logical about them.

Vagueness should not always be misunderstood for lack of clarity or inability to express, it can sometimes strike the right balance between how much to express and how much to conceal.

It is simple to be complicated but extremely complicated to be simple.

Its important in life to conclude things properly, only then can you let go.

You are in the most realizing and receptive state when in bed and not sleepy.

In any partnership, personal or professional, it’s not about being 50:50, but knowing when to be 70 and when to be 30.

It is wiser to find out than to suppose.

To err is human, but to stick to the error even after knowing its an error……Blunder !

Educating children can not be the only solution to our socio- economic problems. They learn as much at home as in school. They observe us and repeat their observations. What’s important is to be good teachers ourselves and set an example.

Peace is not something you wish for, it’s something you make, something you do, something you are, and something you give away.

Crying in front of the wrong people is worse than laughing in front of the wrong people.

The difference between a good and a bad decision is equal to the difference between relying on what you know and relying on what you perceive.

Seasons depict life in a beautiful way. Waiting for autumn is like a child waiting for his future, a stage of excitement and unfamiliarity..while spring is like old age, having already seen the winters and at peace with the past.

Fasting is not just for food and from the tummy, it is in the mind, an exercise of self- control.

Religion is not about idle worship….its in the magic and beauty of nature, the Sun rising everyday, the Moon balancing the heat with its calm, the rivers, the greens.. And its about keeping the God inside alive!

Anything or anyone you are extremely attached to, should only be your strength, not your weakness. And unfortunately, if it does become your weakness, it’s time to be stronger and let it go.